lazier_than_most (Lazy) - "Greetings sorry if we are intruding your sleepy time but who might you be?"
mawsmonster (Maws) - "Wakey wakey!"
Ah, hi. I'm up, give me a second.. egh..
Mincent (Min) - "ah shit of course"
Hi. Mmh.. never used to how I look in these dreams. It feels so.. off.
Min - "you look different then you do in person?"
A little. It's just slightly different.
Min - "how so? if u dont mind me asking"
It's always different. Today I'm in the lab coat again.
I wish it'd be normal today. It was my birthday.
Lazy - "Oh in that case Happy Birthday!"
Thank you! I turned 23 today, I think.
It honestly gets sort of lost on me.
Min - "why isnt it a normal day?"
I'm in the lab coat again. I wish I could just be me for once, haha.
It's odd. Sometimes I'm glad I'm not myself.
Nerdyganii (Nerd) - "Who are we talking to? We can't see you"
I don't know today, really.
Min - "today?"
Who I am differs often. It's scary.
It's okay, though. I don't mind it too much.
I just know it's my birthday. And I'm in the lab coat again.
Min - "i see"
I can't even remember her name, agh... Such a headache.
Min - "who do u want to be?"
Um, let's see. I want to be the best version of myself. I think everyone should be the best version of themselves.
I just don't know who that is yet.
Lazy - "I don't think any of us do anyways"
Mmm... I understand..
Min - "what do you like to do?"
Nerd - "what do you do when youre in the labcoat?"
I've always liked learning about people.
When I'm in the labcoat, I sometimes help people out, I think. I remember she would hide a lot.
Nerd - "who would?"
Me.
Nerd - "you would hide a lot? From who?"
I don't remember. I remember very little of that time. I'm unsure if it happened yet.
I wonder if I had cake today.
I wonder what it would've tasted like.
Everything tastes like pure sugar nowadays.
Nerd - "do you know what could be wrong with your memory? Do you have anything we could use to try and find what your name is?"
Ah, no, it's okay. I wouldn't want to get you all muddled up in my issues.
You're here for a show, not to be my therapist.
B'sides, I'm supposed to be watching with you. Just gets hard sometimes, when you can't figure out who to be.
Lazy - "What show are we here for?"
Let me take a look at the showbill I was issued.
"Rain Heart Kawaii Quest".
Lazy - "Did not know that had a showbill what does that look like"
Ah, that's okay. Doesn't exist anyways.
Nerd - "youre supposed to be watching with us?"
What else am I supposed to do?
I've tried participating. That wasn't me, though. Thank goodness.
Nerd - "thats a little confusing. What do you mean?"
Hahaha, hahahaa! You're a riot. Even *I* don't know what it means.
Lazy - "Well knowing what happens I assure that you are lucky for not participating although judging by this connection that will change in the future."
Ehehehe, no thank you. I don't think even Raine could manage that.
Lazy - "I hope, if you don't mind me asking what are your relations with him?"
That's a loaded question. Full of bad decisions and regret on both sides, I think. He could drink a whole bottle of vodka in one night way back when, hahaha! Love that guy.
Nerd - "do you know someone named Jessica? Does that ring a bell at all?"
I might've at one point. Such an issue sometimes, but that's okay. I think everyone is at some point in their life. Teenagers.
Especially with that comment about alcohol, huh? Such an enabler... God. I think we're all trying to get better. Always. And it just never stops.
Nerd - "what about someone named Alexandria?"
...Vaguely rings a bell? I think, someone knew that one, one of me, knew that... I think.
Nerd - "One of you? How many of you are there?"
I can't remember, honestly. It gets muddy.
WinglessWurm (Wurm) - "Are you Sorath? Like, "The Human Experience" Sorath? Or does it at least ring a bell? You're Sorath, I think. By the way"
Everyone's Sorath. But that's not the name I remember. I remember worshiping her, I think. Mm.. I even got this tattoo in her name. See? It's a 0. Representing absolute zero, something that can't exist because of her.
Wurm - "Lorelai?????"
I remember her.
Wurm - "Sathariel?"
Nerd - "she has a 0 tattoo as well"
I remember her, too.
I know.
Wurm - "You're a freak. But politely"
Lorelai got that tattoo because of me, I remember.
Nerd - "you said you worshipped Sorath? Were you in Church of the Raindrops?"
I remember that one.
Wurm - "Do you remember a Daniel or Oleander?"
Poor Oleander. I remember Danny, too.
Wurm - "Danny is crazy"
We used to be close.
Nerd - "used to be?"
Wurm - "Consistently, personally, or just another one of your selves?"
Personally. We haven't spoken in a long time. This is the first conversation I've had since I spoke to Lorelai, all the way back in 2013...
Nerd - "you seem to remember everything except your name. Maybe we could just fill in the blanks and try and get your name that way? Is there any info you could tell us that would help?"
Why are you so obsessed with names? Those things hold lots of power. Can't people just exist?
Nerd - "thats actually a fair point"
Maws - "People here just like to put a name to a person, don't worry about it"
Wurm - "Names are what you remember people by, next to faces and actions. And in a story where there's so much going on names are kind of important. But I bet you have a lot of those. So"
I do, sometimes.
Wurm - "It's always sometimes. You're very fluid and it's interesting. If we can't get a name, could we get some pronouns? or do those change too? Happy birthday btw"
I've always found "she" to be pretty, but they or it likely works best. And, thank you! I wonder if I had cake.
"He" has always been too powerful-feeling for someone like me.
I was always meant to serve, I feel. "He" just doesn't work for that role, the way I see it.
That's just my own comfortability, though.
Min - "lynn?"
That poor soul.
Nerd - "always meant to serve? How?"
I was born for a purpose. I fulfilled that purpose. I served my purpose.
Wurm - "Gender is a mess I get it. Do you ever not dream? Or, when you wake, are you always someone else?"
Nerd - "what was your purpose?"
I always dream. Yes.
My purpose, I believe, was to open the way for a new world to be born.
Mhhahahaha... I remember, reading the Vatican's documents about me all the while ago...
It was such a fun game of cat and mouse. Would you consider my fate a win for me?
Nerd - "well we don't really know much about your fate. We don't really know a lot about you in general. the vatican?"
I knew about a lot of things they didn't want me knowing. So they had documents about me. They wanted me out of the picture.
Wurm - "Do you like roses?"
A little, yeah.
Nerd - "any way you could be more specific?"
Mmmmm... Nothing I can remember off the top of my head.
Wurm - "Do you like azaleas"
I have a whole garden full.
Wurm - "So azaleas are more of your favorite than roses huh"
I'd say so. I like the white ones.
Wurm - "That's awesome. What would you want for your birthday"
Ah... That's a hard question. I'd like... Hm. I think, I'd want to feel human touch again. Someone's skin against my own.
Wurm - "Do you not have skin or not have people"
Ahahaa, you're funny. Neither.
Wurm - "Was that offensive? I think I should get jester privileges Im like a birthday jester. But that sucks. Do you have a body or are you kinda just along for the ride"
I feel concentrated in one space, and yet spread so thin... It's complex.
Wurm - "That is complex"
Maws - "Do you know Harmonia? Opinons on her?"
Harmonia is divinity incarnate. She is the perfect canvas. I can't help but be envious, who wouldn't be?
Wurm - "Get a room ! If you know Harmonia then do you know her pals? Orpheus? Roxy? Etc?"
Orpheus was a very important step in continuing my work, as was Roxy. They still continue to help.
Wurm - "YOUR work?"
I remember it. I opened the gate to the new world. They are helping to mold it.
Nerd - "the new world?"
Wurm - "Is the new world the post-apocalypse?"
Maws - "THE APOCALYPSEEE!!!!"
You could say that, I think.
Nerd - "mold it? How?"
Maws - "no"
Opening the gate resulted in an apocalypse. Orpheus prevented it from getting out of hand, making it the perfect new world.
My work is nowhere near finished yet. I'm very excited to see how it all turns out in the end. I'm confident it will work. This new world will be perfect.
Nerd - "what is that"
Harmonia.
Lazy - "She looks different.., Is she a part of your plan?"
She is the final step.
...Aaaand, it's no longer my birthday. Sigh.
I s'ppose I shouldn't overstay my welcome. Anything you'd like to say to me? It could be your last chance, really. I'm so sleepy these days... I'm confident that my work will be done without me...
Mmhhh... I feel... cold...
The breeze makes the cloth and metal so cold...
But.. I don't mind... I feel her warmth so close...
So... so warm....
...
...Oh, right, one... one last thing..
I'm sorry for looking in your eyes without permission.
DISCONNECTED.
